Discovered Talent

Acrylic first try at painting

Second Acrylic

First try at oils

Second oil

3rd acrylic

3rd oil

4th oil

5th oil

So I decided to try and find something else I could do to cope with stress besides play my awesome piano.  I can't play at 9:00 at night when the kids are trying to sleep.  I decided to try painting.  I first tried Acrylic paints at the top.  I was surprised that I could even do anything with them.  I have never taken an art class in my life.  Actually it has never really interested me.  I can draw stick figures but that was all I thought my artistic talent went.
I then ventured to oils, which I LOVE!!!  Thanks to youtube, I have learned to do some landscapes, and seascapes.  I don't draw them first...remember I can't draw.  LOL.  I am actually proud of myself for trying something new.  This year has been ups and downs but very rewarding.  Ben and I have learned a lot about photography and have been able to do quite a lot of photo-shoots  for people.  I could never measure up to my friend (Aspen) and sister-in-law that are amazing, but it is something we enjoy doing together.  That is mainly why we do it.  I love that we can play our intruments, do musical numbers and just mess around with music together, and I love that we found something else we enjoy.  It really helps strengthen our relationship.
Ben has been an amazing support in helping me try and paint.  He is so encouraging and makes me feel so good.  He has a few hanging in his office that he says are his fav.  He is more then willing to help me get the stuff I need in supplies.  Of course he is very smart in everything.  I value his opinion greatly.
 I seriously have random thoughts today.
I have another commissioned painting that I have done for a co-worker that I am not quite done with that I will post soon.
If anybody needs christmas gifts or would like to commission a painting or has any ideas let me know.  I'm up for trying anything.

family pictures

We finally got family pictures done.We didn't really do any last year except in June at my brother's wedding, and we have all changed quite a bit since then.  I really have done horrible this year with posting.  I can't believe how fast the year has gone.  I'll do a year in review next month.

Temples

The kids wanted to see where mom and dad got married.  I have wanted to do a photo shoot of the temple anyway to hang in my living room.  Kynzee called it Heavenly Father's Castle.  So when we drove past the bountiful temple and the Brigham City temple this last weekend, she yelled out, "there is father's castle."  I love that she thinks that.  I want to take them to all the temples around our house.  We are surrounded and we feel very blessed.

Life is still good for us.  Being in our own house has  been amazing.  If life were perfect, I would be able to stay home and be a mom and raise my beautiful children..instead of someone else's.  I struggle with that more then anything right now.  I get an hour or so  with my kids every night by the time I get home from work.  It is SOOOO not worth it to me.  However, the insurance saves us.  I am working for insurance only and daycare.  I see only $20 a paycheck.  The rest is insurance and given right back to the place I work for kynzee and brynlee's daycare.  The insurance has been an amazing blessing and has saved us over $1500 a month.  You just can't help but be grateful when it was $1500 a month for all of Ben's diabetes medication, supplies and now his diabetes supplies (strips) are free and insulin is $50.  We are hoping  Ben will get a change in his insurance at Maverik this month.  This will allow me to go part time and be a mom, which is what I want most in the world right now.  I am very grateful for the little things.  I am grateful that my kids are kept safe when they get home from school and have to be by themselves.  I am so grateful for Aiden and his caring, loving personality.  He takes such good care of his sisters and is constantly concerned for them.  I am very blessed to have such amazing kids that are very forgiving (most the time) of my horrible schedule.  They are my life!!!!

Now about Moving

On June 7th we made the next step in our lives and FINALLY moved from Ben's Parent's house to West Valley.  Ben's brother has been throwing the idea of us renting his house for quite a few months however, despite my crappy job, we could not pull it off.  Medical expenses just have overtaken our lives for the last 5 years.  I happen to get insurance at work which covers medication.  So instead of $900 for three months of insulin, it was only $50.  So basically I am just working to have the insurance until Ben's changes hopefully sometime in the near future.  I finally agreed to move into Ben's brother's house when they asked us again in May.  I was sooooo incredibly scared that everything would fall apart again and we would be in the same situation.  Living with Ben's parent's for the last 4 years has been a blessing.  They are so amazing to be able to give up their basement for that long and tolerate the kids and all our crap. Last summer I seriously thought we were never going to be able to be on our own.  I had lost my hope.  I hate going by Heavenly Father's time table sometimes. I did learn a lot of life's lessons living there.  Some of our storage has been in storage for 5 years so it was like Christmas opening all the boxes and throwing stuff out.  I still feel like I'm in a dream sometimes, but it has been really good for us to be on our own finally.  When I get everything put together and decorated I will post pictures of the inside.  It has been an incredibly different summer with deaths, funerals, work, and school for the kids.  I am sooooo grateful that we have the chance to be our own family again.

Kynzee's photoshoot

 yes she is holding string cheese hahaha

It is definitely a happy day when Kynzee actually smiles when I take her picture.  She NEVER, never smiles or is happy.  I don't know what was different today...maybe cause I was home and not at work.  The first thing Ben asked me was how I got her to smile at all let alone like that.  I told him that I had no idea.  Kynz is almost 2 and half and a very determined, independent little girl.  She loves to snuggle and will asked to have Ben or I snuggle with her at night.  She loves to color and draw just like Aiden did at that age.  She likes it when we spell her name out loud for her to copy letter by letter.  She knows all the letters in her name.  Her favorite show is Dora and Diego, which was Bryn's favorite at that age.  She is growing well and eats more then Aiden and Bryn put together.  She is not as picky (yet)  It is quite a nice break not to fight her with food as well.  She weighs 22 pounds and is in the 50th percentile for her height.  She is up and down about potty training.  She would go at school when she first turned 2, but now she won't.  When I ask her at home she tells me "no"  It is on her terms I guess, which I have a very hard time with.  I tried the 3 day training and she just wouldn't cooperate. She is just being her stubborn self.  Brynlee potty trained herself so I haven't had to deal with girl potty training.  She is still somewhat a mamma's girl but is leaning more towards daddy just like the others did.  I am glad the kids love him so much.  I am so glad Kynzee is in our family.  I love her soooo much.

Brynlee's photoshoot

Brynlee's eyes have now turned green.  I went to enhance the color on the photo and that is the color that popped.  I have noticed for awhile that they were changing from blue to green (just like her mom).  I can't believe my baby girl is 5 (2 months ago)  My grandma's funeral was on her birthday so we didn't get to do much or celebrate it.  I am so glad she is young enough not to care.  She wanted her pictures taken to celebrate her first day of Kindergarten.  Bryn has gone from a very laid back baby to a very stubborn little girl.  Her favorite color is blue, her favorite food is spaghetti which she asks for EVERY day.  Her favorite dessert is vanilla ice cream.  She loves to watch "Jake and the Neverland Pirates" every chance she gets.  She loves to watch movies or do  church puzzles on the ipads.  She loves to play with magnets and paint.  Bryn can be the most sweetest cuddly girl.  She loves to cuddle next to me on the couch.  She still has some health issues that we will have to deal with forever, but she never complains cause that is all she knows.  We see a pediatric Endocrinologist next week to start another round of tests.  I am so glad that she is in our family.  It would not be the same without her sweet spirit.