glass half.....

Sometimes I have an extremely difficult time looking at a glass half full. I tend to look at it half empty most of the time. Maybe it's my personality, I don't know why, but I have always been that way. Well over the past year, I have tried extremely hard to look at the glass as being half full instead of empty. You'd think it would get easier, but it doesn't. At least for me. Because the last year and a half has been absolutely hell for us, I decided to help me out (emotionally) this week that I would think of everything positive that has happened in the last year. So bear with me. It's suppose to be good therapy (says my therapist).

1. My baby girl DIDN'T die of SIDS like she almost did.
2. Ben got diabetes instead of CANCER a year ago this month
3. Ben lost his job, but we got to move back to Ogden.
4. We live closer to our family.
5. We get to live with Ben's parents, which has brought my kids and us closer to them. The kids love it.
6. Ben's diabetes is extremely well managed and under control. Way to go Babe!!! A1c of 6.0. Sometimes I forget he has it.
7. Brynlee is slowly slowly slowly gaining weight with the help of pedisure and lots of calories.
8. Aiden finally got his tongue clipped and can stick it out at people.
9. Aiden is learning to write his letters and can write his name and everyone else's and he just turned 4.
10. Ben had an interview of a job that would be incredible for us. Apparently, it was out of 100's that he was interviewed and the only one outside of the company. We are saying our prayers.
11. I manage to stay in RECOVERY from my eating disorder despite the constant trials and extreme stress. BIG accomplishment (almost 3 years). Most times I would rather turned to this. Yay for will power.
12. Our car stayed fixed for a month (until today). Big accomplishment.
13. I have the best husband and kids in the whole world.

This is all I can think of at the moment. This week has been extremely difficult for me to deal with. But looking at this list helps me realize that there are a lot of people in this world that have it 10 billion times harder than me and my family. Sometimes it is so much easier to look at the negative happening because that's all that seems to be happening, but through all the crap, there is some good. This is something that I have to point out to myself often so I don't completely lose it. Thanks for listening.