House and Car

The other day Aiden said he wanted his own house and that he didn't want to live with grandma anymore. He said he still loves her, but he wants to have his own house. I told him I did too really bad and that we were trying. I told him daddy would have to get a new job and that he was trying to find one.
I hope I get the story right, but he told Ben's mom the other day that he wanted his own house and she said that we (ben and I) did too. He told her that he would give his mom all his money so she could buy a house. She thought that was so sweet of him to say. He is a very caring, sensitive boy. He would give anybody anything.

Aiden's favorite color lately has been yellow. He informed me after we were dealing with our retarded car, that he wanted a yellow car and that we should go buy one. This is exactly what he described he wanted. I don't know cars very well so Ben had to help me out with his description. He said " Mom, do you think they will let us buy one?" I said "Who is they?" He said, "you know, the people that make yellow cars." So everyday for a week he asks if our car is all the way broken so we can buy a yellow car. I tell him our car IS all the way broken but that we can't afford to buy a new car. He said, "it's okay mom, I saved my pennies for you so you could." SO cute!!!

The recent New Moon Trailer

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This is Brynlee walking on her own. This is the furthest she has walked. She refuses to walk between anybody. She likes to do things on her own time. She is now 14 months old.

The BIGGEST fish story

The weirdest thing in the world happened on Friday. Aiden has this Betta fish and has had if for a year and a half ( I know long life for a single fish). Well Ben cleaned the bowl out the night before and gave it fresh new water. I refuse to do it. It disgusts me. Friday morning the happy fish was swimming around it's new clean home. Around noon when I put Aiden down for a nap it was still swimming all happy. Aiden gave it some food and then went to sleep. 2 hours later I went to wake him up and noticed the food was still at the top of the bowl and the fish was NO WHERE to be found. It was not in the bowl anymore. It wasn't anywhere around the bowl. No water had been spilled. I thought maybe I just imagined it being in there earlier and Ben really hadn't returned it to it's home. So I waited for him to come home from his Dr. Apt and asked him. NOPE, I wasn't imagining anything. He had put it back. We looked everywhere. In his drawers. We thought maybe a cat had gotten in the house and ate it, but there would have been water spilled everywhere and the dresser stuff disturbed. Nothing was out of sorts...Except the fish had vanished into thin air. I know Aiden would not have touched the fish. Even the thought of touching it freaked him out. CRAZY CRAZY.
So we went to walmart today and bought Aiden a new fish that looks like the one above. I hope this one doesn't decide to vanish into thin air. Now isn't that the biggest fish story you've ever heard. Completely pycho if I do say so myself.

glass half.....

Sometimes I have an extremely difficult time looking at a glass half full. I tend to look at it half empty most of the time. Maybe it's my personality, I don't know why, but I have always been that way. Well over the past year, I have tried extremely hard to look at the glass as being half full instead of empty. You'd think it would get easier, but it doesn't. At least for me. Because the last year and a half has been absolutely hell for us, I decided to help me out (emotionally) this week that I would think of everything positive that has happened in the last year. So bear with me. It's suppose to be good therapy (says my therapist).

1. My baby girl DIDN'T die of SIDS like she almost did.
2. Ben got diabetes instead of CANCER a year ago this month
3. Ben lost his job, but we got to move back to Ogden.
4. We live closer to our family.
5. We get to live with Ben's parents, which has brought my kids and us closer to them. The kids love it.
6. Ben's diabetes is extremely well managed and under control. Way to go Babe!!! A1c of 6.0. Sometimes I forget he has it.
7. Brynlee is slowly slowly slowly gaining weight with the help of pedisure and lots of calories.
8. Aiden finally got his tongue clipped and can stick it out at people.
9. Aiden is learning to write his letters and can write his name and everyone else's and he just turned 4.
10. Ben had an interview of a job that would be incredible for us. Apparently, it was out of 100's that he was interviewed and the only one outside of the company. We are saying our prayers.
11. I manage to stay in RECOVERY from my eating disorder despite the constant trials and extreme stress. BIG accomplishment (almost 3 years). Most times I would rather turned to this. Yay for will power.
12. Our car stayed fixed for a month (until today). Big accomplishment.
13. I have the best husband and kids in the whole world.

This is all I can think of at the moment. This week has been extremely difficult for me to deal with. But looking at this list helps me realize that there are a lot of people in this world that have it 10 billion times harder than me and my family. Sometimes it is so much easier to look at the negative happening because that's all that seems to be happening, but through all the crap, there is some good. This is something that I have to point out to myself often so I don't completely lose it. Thanks for listening.