All The Grandkids

All the grandkids are finally together at last. This was taken a couple weeks ago. My mom was gleeming from ear to ear. She hasn't had her grandkids together since Christmas.

From Left to Right: Lilie, Veyron, Aiden, and Brynlee. Lilie is my sister Aimie's and Veyron is my brother, Kevron's

My Sister: A Tribute To An Angel Baby

ANGEL BABY

Here is a tribute to my older sister who I never got a chance to know on this earth, but will stay in my heart forever.

Christine Rees
was born September 22, 1979 and returned home September 22, 1979.

If Tears Could Build a Stairway If tears could build a stairway And memories were a lane We would walk right up to heaven And bring you back again No farewell words were spoken No time to say goodbye You were gone before we knew it And only God knows why Our hearts still ache in sadness And secret tears still flow What it meant to lose you No one can ever know But now we know you want us To mourn for you no more To remember all the happy times Life still has much in store Since you'll never be forgotten We pledge to you today A hallowed place within our hearts Is where you'll always stay ...author unknown... Happy 29th Birthday Sis. We will Always Love you. Families are Forever

My Little Athlete

Aiden Loves all sports. He has been able to hit a ball when it is pitched to him for at least six months. He just turned three last month. I have never seen a two year old be able to do this. I am so impressed with the way he can throw a freebie. He can throw one better then I can and he knows it. He always says "come on mommy, you can do better then that." Funny funny hahahaha.

Batter Up

Confessons

I get the cutest ideas from my friend, Steph. She did a confessions on her blog and I learned so much from her..so here is mine.

1. I am very particular or perfectionistic (as ben would say) about my cleaning schedule. Everything is mapped out on a piece of paper, taped to my fridge.
2. I have a hard time focusing on one thing at a time to clean. I jump from room to room sometimes before I finish a certain room. Hense the list.
3. I absolutely hate change.
4. Sometimes I constantly look at the clock to see if it is nap time or bed time for Aiden. But only because I need a break bad.
5. I check my e-mail up to 5 times a day, but I sometimes don't check it at all.
6. I listen to the same CD or album for about four months straight.
7. I am very much a germ freak. I love to sanitize.
8. When I am playing a song on the piano, if I don't like the base clef then I will make up my own.
9. I have a secret stash of candy that is about 5 years old (yuck).
10. I cry at least once a day.

Type 1.5 it is

So an update on the complicated diabetes case that has taken over our family. Ben has been officially diagnosed with type 1.5 diabetes. I had never heard of this until about a week ago when all this had blown up in our faces. Here is a little bit about type 1.5:

Type 1.5 is one of several names now applied to those who are diagnosed with diabetes as adults, but who do not immediately require insulin for treatment, are often not overweight, and have little or no resistance to insulin. When special lab tests are done, they are found to have antibodies, especially GAD65 antibodies, that attack their beta cells. This sort of diabetes is sometimes called Slow Onset Type 1 or Latent Autoimmune Diabetes in Adults or LADA.

The doctor found the presence of this GAD antibody in Ben's blood, which as stated above, happens in individuals with Type 1 diabetes. Because of this, he will be on Insulin and oral medication. According to the dr. he will most likely be completely on insulin within the next four years. This GAD antibody is attacking Ben's pancreas as we speak. The doctor said his pancreas has taken quite a hit and will continue to until it gives completely out. What makes Ben such a complicated case is that he required insulin immediately and his body is making very little insulin, as well as the late onset. He is coping well and has a very very good attitude about keeping it well managed....my coping on the other hand is a different story.

ONLY UP FROM HERE

It can only go up when you hit rock bottom, right? Well that is what we are praying for. life is funny. It throws so many curve balls, bumps in the road, whatever you want to call them. We have been thrown so many bumps in the road in the last three months, sometimes I think I want to be one of those bumps and just disappear. Brynlee is doing so much better with her apnea episodes and was given a clean bill of health last Thursday. Ben's weird lump/cancer scare is completely gone (thank goodness). However, these "bumps" this last week are a little harder to jump over for all of us. It all started when we had to have a health assessment for Ben's work. Him and I have to have a health assessment every year for insurance purposes. We got our results last Saturday. Mine was perfect, blood tests and everything. Ben's on the other hand have me pulling out my hair. His blood glucose was at 360. We both laughed at that number and said it had to be wrong. I suggested he get it tested at the Utah State Campus doctor. He finally consented to do so on Tuesday. Needless to say, he got diagnoised with type 1 diabetes after a glucose of 550. I completely freaked out, first cancer scares and now this. Except this was an actual reality and a ton better then cancer. I was completely shocked and so was Ben. He had had no symptoms except thirst and urinating frequently. He had lost about 35 pounds but he thought it was the diet I had put him on 10 months ago to loose weight and become healthier. To make a long story short, the doctors aren't sure exactly what kind of diabetes he has. He does not fit the typical symptoms for type 1 or type 2. They are leaning more towards type 1.5, which I didn't know even existed. He has a complicated case that has the doctor baffled. He is on insulin shots to help regulate his blood sugars and to help bring them down to a normal healthy level. So far so good.

The same day as the diagnoses, Ben was fired from his job for not clocking back in after a lunch break. He had totally spaced it and they fired him. Apperently his high blood sugars attributed to his spacey and forgetfullness. The company is extremely pickey about stuff like that apperently. If it were me, I would have been fired 10,000 times probably for all the times I had forgotten to clock in or out at the hospital when I worked there.

On the bright side, he got a job offer in Ogden at Capitol where he worked before we moved to Logan. So I am so excited to announce we are moving back to Ogden. In Ogden, we can be closer to family and he can be closer to the diabetes doctors down there. There are none in Logan. I applied for a job at a Medical Weightloss clinic in Ogden as a Nutrition Counsler...I really really want it.

Today I did so good. I was proud of his and my efforts to lower his extremely high glucoses. The diabetes educator gave me the okay to be his nutritionist so that he does not have to see a dietitican weekly or ever. I am glad I have a degree in what I do. Diabetes is complex as far as nutrition goes. I knew a little before his diagnoses, but now I am forced to learn everything I can. Before dinner tonight his glucose was a perfect 103 (normal), two hours after dinner it was 150, perfect for two hours after a meal. I was so excited that the portions I gave him were correct and worked well with his body. It has been so overwhelming to me. He is taking it so well and is coping very well considering he loves junk food. It will be an incredible lifestyle change for us and our families to count every carb in every food, but somehow we will manage because that is the hand we are dealt with right now.

I have to keep reminding myself that Heavenly Father doesn't give us more then we can handle. I forget sometimes that he knows us better then we know ourselves becuase I never thought I could handle this many bumps in the road.

9 pounds and growing

Brynlee is two and a half months old now and she just keeps growing up. She is now 9 pounds and 22.5 inches long. I love the stage where smiles are endless (most of the time). She is such a happy, good baby. She definitely makes up for Aiden who still doesn't sleep through the night very often and seems a little bit more high maintenance at times. However, they both are so much fun together. Aiden is so gentle and sweet to his "little sister." I am looking forward to the coming months where the even funner stages come.